My Precious Girl,
We are now 14 months on the list. I always love to see one month closer! Of course, the wait times have increased yet again. We are now at the average being 36-42 months (when we started it was 18-24). So I start to wonder if it is every going to stop increasing. Everytime we get a month closer, the wait times increase and we haven't gotten any closer really....so now my latest fear....I am going to be old! Will I still be a good mom? Will I have enough energy? Patience? Casen will probably be in Kindergarten (or maybe even high school, who knows at this point) will I be able to start fresh with a toddler?? These are the fears that I think of this month. Irrational? maybe. Silly? definitely. But what else am I going to do with all this waiting around except find new things to worry about. I always remember the verse, Be anxious for nothing, but in everything, by prayer and supplication, let your requests be made known unto God. This is what I do! My hope is in Him, and His timing is perfect, and His grace is sufficient when needed. Nothing escapes His watch, His attention. Nothing catches him by surprise, not even these crazy wait times. So I know I can give Him my worries, I know that I can trust His timing, I know when we see you for the first time, all of this will melt away. I love you my princess!!!
Your family while we wait for you.....
We are now 14 months on the list. I always love to see one month closer! Of course, the wait times have increased yet again. We are now at the average being 36-42 months (when we started it was 18-24). So I start to wonder if it is every going to stop increasing. Everytime we get a month closer, the wait times increase and we haven't gotten any closer really....so now my latest fear....I am going to be old! Will I still be a good mom? Will I have enough energy? Patience? Casen will probably be in Kindergarten (or maybe even high school, who knows at this point) will I be able to start fresh with a toddler?? These are the fears that I think of this month. Irrational? maybe. Silly? definitely. But what else am I going to do with all this waiting around except find new things to worry about. I always remember the verse, Be anxious for nothing, but in everything, by prayer and supplication, let your requests be made known unto God. This is what I do! My hope is in Him, and His timing is perfect, and His grace is sufficient when needed. Nothing escapes His watch, His attention. Nothing catches him by surprise, not even these crazy wait times. So I know I can give Him my worries, I know that I can trust His timing, I know when we see you for the first time, all of this will melt away. I love you my princess!!!
Your family while we wait for you.....
Casen's sweet hands, with a roly poly crawling all over him. Bugs (ANY bugs, spiders, worms, bees) he tries to catch them all.
Yes, this is YOUR brother!
Welcome to boy world!!!
Austin started his 2nd season of kid pitch!
Brenden started his first season of coach pitch.
Don't worry you are not going to be old.. your little girl wait for you too.
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Thanks for stopping by my blog, Kina! I just finished reading yours from beginning to end. What a lovely family you have. I hope you continue to update the blog. I know how very hard the wait is, but the day you hear you finally have a referral is the most wonderful feeling ever.
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